天哪 God.
好吧 好吧 Okay. Okay.
"我宁做斧锤也不做铁钉" "I'd rather be a hammer than a nail."
不 No.
见鬼去吧! Fuck you, bitch!
涉足荒野
- 祝你好运 - 谢谢 - Good luck. - Thanks.
嗨 Hi.
订今晚的一个房间 I need a room for the night.
十八美元 $18.
除非... 一会儿有朋友和你一起 Unless... you have a companion joining you later.
如果有 你要付更多 If you have a companion, it's more.
没朋友陪我 I don't have a companion.
那就是十八美元 So it's $18.
到目前为止 For now.
一直都会是十八美元的 It'll stay $18.
除非等会儿有谁来 Unless someone comes later.
他不会来 Which he won't.
可能会 He may.
说出在O.J.辛普森家找到的证据 To throw out certain evidence obtained at O.J. Simpson's house.
我要徒步太平洋屋脊步道 I'm hiking the PCT.
而且 我没有车牌号或者地址 And, I don't have a license plate number or an address.
就写你朋友的地址 Just put down your folks' address.
- 喂 - 嗨 - Hello. - Hey.
噢 嗨 Oh, hey.
嗨 Hi.
嗯 Hey.
你... 你在莫哈韦沙漠吗? Y... You in Mojave?
嗯 我把你的地址 Yeah. I used your address
作为我的写在了注册表格上 因为我... as my address on the registration form 'cause I...
我想不到可以写谁的 I couldn't think of anything else.
噢 没关系 随时都可以 No, that's cool. Anytime.
要是看见我弟弟 能告诉他我在哪儿吗? Hey, if you see my little brother, will you let him know where I am?
倒不是他会在意 我只是想让他知道 Not that he would give a shit, but I just want him to know.
不 他在意 他会知道的 No, he does, he will.
那个 我在给一个朋友做晚餐 然后... Listen, I'm making dinner for a friend, and...
噢 哪个朋友? Oh. Which friend?
有什么关系吗? Does it make any difference?
我打电话来只是为了找列夫 You know, I only called because I was looking for Leif.
不 我希望你来电 希望你来电 No, I want you to call. I want you to call.
我们是朋友啊 是吧? We're friends, remember?
对不起 Sorry.
不 是我对不起 No, I'm sorry.
因为什么? For what?
我... 我不知道 I... I don't know.
我... 我很抱歉... I'm... I'm sorry...
你必须走一千英里只是为了... that you have to walk a thousand miles just to...
把话说完 Finish that sentence.
为什么我必须走一千英里? Why do I have to walk a thousand miles?
你有可以写地址的清单吗? Do you have the list of addresses to write to?
嗯 我有 Yeah. Yeah.
想让我给你寄点什么吗? Do you want me to send anything else?
不 谢谢 No, thanks.
艾梅负责寄我需要的那些箱子 Aimee's in charge of all the boxes.
好的 好的 Okay. Okay.
我得挂了 I got to go.
祝你旅途快乐 谢丽尔 Happy trails, Cheryl.
记住 你随时都可以放弃 Remember, you can quit anytime.
风暴 世界上最响亮的口哨 用于自我保护
该死 Shit.
噢 我的天 Oh, my God.
该死! Shit!
好吧 Okay.
你要去哪? So where are you going?
沿着太平洋屋脊步道远足 I'm hiking the Pacific Crest Trail.
那条步道从墨西哥的国界一直延伸到加拿大 It goes from the Mexican border up to Canada.
我要走上三个月了 I'll be walking for the next three months.
哇 Wow.
直到到达阿什兰 Up to Ashland.
你经常徒步旅行吗? You do a lot of hiking?
怎么说呢 Well, I mean,
我不迷恋 但这一路会很艰难 就算对我来说也是 I'm not obsessive, but this is quite a stretch, even for me.
我猜一段时间内 这是你最后一次和人类交流了 I guess we're gonna be the last human contact you have for a while?
没错 That's true.
# 你再也不能 # You can never
# 回家了 # Go home anymore
# 听着 # Listen
# 这些听起来熟悉吗? # Does this sound familiar?
# 每天早上醒来 # You wake up every morning
# 每天都去学校 # Go to school every day
# 在角落里度过夜晚 # Spend your nights on the corner
# 不过是在虚度光阴 # Just passing time away
# 人生如此寂寞 # Your life is so lonely
# 就像没有玩具的小孩 # Like a child without a toy
# 继而奇迹出现 # Then a miracle
# 一个男孩走来 # A boy
# 那样的感觉便是 欣喜 # And that's called "glad"
# 再也不 # Never
# 回家去了 # Go home anymore
# 如今... # Now...
我也爱你 儿子 Love you, too, son.
如果你的勇气 拒绝承认你 就超越你的勇气 "If your Nerve, deny you, Go above your Nerve."
艾米莉·迪金森 和谢丽尔·斯瑞德 Emily Dickinson. And Cheryl Strayed.
Emily Dickinson 美国十九世纪著名女诗人
第1天
噢 天哪 Oh, my God.
该死地 我干了什么? What the fuck have I done?
该死地什么? What... The fuck?
在干嘛? What...
该死 The fuck?
真该死 What the fuck?
你随时可以放弃 You can quit anytime.
你随时... You can quit...
可以放弃 anytime.
你随时... You can quit...
可以停下 anytime.
5英里
好叻! Yes!
该死 Shit.
真见鬼 Jesus fucking Christ.
# 是的 我会 # Yes, I would
# 如果我可以 # If I could
# 我当然会 # I surely would
我今天想到你了 I thought of you today.
感受到一股涌出的能量 I felt a burst of energy,
记起为什么我觉得自己可以完成这次远足 remembering why I thought I could hike this trail.
希望要是我放弃了 你不会生气 I hope you won't be mad at me if I quit.
今天挖土机从一堆松软的土中挖出了 "Today a backhoe divulged out of a crumbling flank of earth,
一瓶琥珀 颗颗完美 "one bottle amber, perfect,
是治愈发烧和忧郁的百年老药 "a hundred-year-old cure for fever or melancholy...
是在地球上生存的补品 "A tonic for living on this earth.
今天我要读关于玛丽·居里的故事 "Today I was reading about Marie Curie."
她去世时已名扬四海 她否认自己的伤 "She died a famous woman, denying her wounds...
否认给予她力量的源泉 "Denying her wounds came from the same source
给她造成了伤害 "as her power."
他说什么了? So, what did he say?
他说会打电话给你 He said he was going to call you.
- 你是认真的吗? - 嗯 我知道 - Are you serious? - Yeah, I know.
他以为我们还在初中吗? Does he think we're in junior high?
就是嘛! Exactly!
我觉得他会问你要电话号码! I think he's going to ask for your number!
芭比? Bobbi?
- 嗨 - 嗨 - Hey. - Hey.
- 进展如何? - 很好 - How's it going? - Good.
很难 但是很有趣 Hard but fun.
好的 回见 All right. See you.
嗯 好 Yeah, cool.
这个 我先拿走一下 I'm just gonna grab this for a second.
对不起 今天在学校我没理你 I'm sorry I ignored you at school today.
没关系 亲爱的 That's okay, hon.
我们说好的 是吧? We agreed, right?
和你妈妈一起去学校是挺怪的 It's pretty strange going to school with your mom.
这不是因为我不以你为傲 It's not because I'm not proud of you.
我真的以你为傲 I'm really proud of you.
知道吗? 我也以你为傲 You know what? I'm pretty proud of me, too.
天哪 要学好多东西 God, there's so much to know.
之前知道会有很多知识要学 但是... I mean, I knew there was a lot, but...
没想到有这么多 not this much.
你读过埃丽卡·荣的作品了吧? You've read Erica Jong, right?
好的 那跟我讲讲关于一夜情的事吧 Okay, so tell me about the zipless fuck.
妈 我不会和你讨论一夜情的 Mom, I am not gonna discuss zipless fucks with you.
你必须 因为我得写一篇相关文章 You have to, 'cause I have to write a paper about it.
我是说 你知道 那个... I mean, you know, is it...
- 好尴尬 - ... 对于女人而言 - This is so awkward. - ...that much easier for women now
- 现在比以前更加容易了? - 我不知道 - than it was before? - I don't know.
我们可以不要讨论这个吗? Can we not discuss this?
对我来说 好像人们总是避而不谈 Well, for me, it felt like it was always covered in zips.
哪儿都一样 Zips, strings, everywhere I went.
喂 Hey.
晚饭吃什么? 妈妈 我饿了 What's for dinner, Mom? I'm starving.
书和文章 Books and essays.
我可以随便弄点什么 I can fix something.
韦恩 你要留下吗? 想吃点什么吗? Are you gonna stay, Wayne? You want something to eat?
- 可以啊 - 妈 他们十八岁了 - Sure. - Mom, they are 18 years old.
可以自己做晚饭 They can cook their own dinner.
你还要写文章呢 You've got a paper to write.
如果做不了一个妈妈 那我也做不了学生 If I can't be a mom, then I can't be a student, either.
规则手册 Rule book.
这很无厘头啊 That's ridiculous.
如果她想帮我做晚饭 就让她做吧 If she wants to make me dinner, then let her.
我在想 你学过 I wonder, have you learned any of this
- 我们在读的东西了吗? - 我要事事亲为 - that we're reading? - You know, I have to do everything.
我想做所有的事 I want to do everything.
希望你也是 I hope you do, too.
意大利面? Pasta?
否认她的力量 "Denying her wounds
带给自己的伤 "came from her power.
"否认给予她力量的源泉给她造成了伤害" "Denying her wounds came from the same source as her power."
# 而你想要闭着眼旅行... # And you want to travel blind...
我不害怕 I'm not afraid.
第2天
请确保只使用 "Please ensure that you only use white gas
与这个炉相配的无铅汽油 "compatible with this stove.
使用其他燃料可能会损坏器材 "Other fuels may harm the equipment
致使其无法使用 "and render it inoperable."
该死 Shit.
该死 Shit!
冷玉米粥很好 Cold mush is great.
冷粥加坚果 Cold mush with nuts.
冷粥加金枪鱼干 Cold mush with tuna jerky.
冷粥梦 Cold mush dreams.
冷粥屎 Cold mush shit.
我爱冷粥 I love cold mush.
第5天
"远足结束你想干些什么 谢丽尔?" "What do you like to do when you're not hiking, Cheryl?"
30英里
我想坐在真正的马桶上 I like to sit on a real toilet.
然后冲水 And flush.
我想做饭 I like to cook food.
和人们一起吃饭 Eat food with other people.
人 那是另一个我喜欢的东西 People, that's another thing I like.
我想和人讲话 I like talking to people,
听人说话 listening to people.
真有趣 直到我决定独自穿过该死的沙漠 Funny, that's a hobby, one I hadn't even realized I had.
才意识到自己还有这爱好 Until I decided to walk on my own through the fucking desert.
第8天
我们必须喂饱你 孩子 We got to feed you, kid.
应该等着还是继续走? Should I stay or should I go?
# 我宁做麻雀也不做蜗牛 # I'd rather be a sparrow than a snail
# 嗯 我会 # Yes, I would
喂! Hey!
嗨! Hi!
我叫谢丽尔 My name is Cheryl.
我在太平洋屋脊步道远足 现在没食粮了 I'm walking the PCT, and I've run out of food.
你可不可以把我带到一个可以吃到热食的地方 I'm just wondering if you could take me someplace I could get a warm meal.
我在工作 I'm working.
嗯 我理解 Yeah, I understand.
但也许工作完了 你可以把我带到某个地方? But maybe when you're finished, you could take me somewhere?
都这时候了 没有地方会开门的 Not gonna find anything open this time of day.
那也许你可以把我送到 Well, maybe you could just drive me
一个早上会开门供应早餐的地方 to someplace that'd be open in the morning for breakfast,
那样我可以在附近露营 and I can camp nearby.
你一定饿坏了 You must be starving.
我带了脱水的食物 带了炉子 I brought all these dehydrated meals, and I brought a stove,
但是没带对燃料 but I brought the wrong fuel.
嗯 我还有事儿没弄完 Yeah, I got a little bit more work to do,
但你可以到我的卡车里等着 but you can wait in my truck.
太感谢了 Thank you.
- 先生 谢谢你 - 举手之劳 - Thank you, sir. - Yeah.
好了 我在想 All right, I've been thinking.
你可以跟我一起回家 You can come back to my place
吃个热腾腾的晚饭 洗个热水澡 for a hot dinner and a hot shower.
好的 Okay.
那个 你是哪种类型的女人? So, what kind of woman are you?
哪种类型? What kind?
对啊 你是简那种的吗? Yeah. Are you like a Jane?
就是泰山里面的简啊 You know, Tarzan's Jane.
你是简那种类型吗? Are you a Jane?
狂野型的? A wild woman?
我这儿有点儿不错的东西 I got a little something for us.
就是这个了 你能喝吗 That is, if you partake.
当然 Sure.
女士优先 Ladies first.
- 噢 - 这东西真是物美价廉 - Oh. - It's cheap, but it's good.
是吧? See?
- 谢谢 - 别客气 - Thanks. - Yeah.
那我就叫你简了 I'm gonna call you Jane.
我丈夫和我一起徒步太平洋屋脊步道 Yeah, my husband's hiking the PCT with me.
他只是比我走的快一些 He's just a little bit further ahead on the trail.
我们很快就会和了 We're gonna meet up really soon.
大概在肯尼迪草原那一带 Probably around Kennedy Meadows.
一天幸苦工作后 我喜欢做点别的事犒劳自己 I got a little something else I like to do after a hard day's work.
你喜欢甘草条吗? You like licorice?
噢 谢了 Oh, thanks.
使劲儿 Come on.
加把劲儿啊 简 Come on, Jane!
好了 你得保证 All right, you got to promise
不告诉我妻子 that you're not gonna tell my wife,
因为她不太乐意让我吃糖 because she hates it when I eat candy.
好的 Okay.
怎么了 你打算一直站在那吗? What, you just gonna stand there?
噢 姑娘 等一下 Oh, hold on, sweetheart.
无意冒犯 但... No offense, but...
谢谢 Thank you.
你打算就这么看着吗... Well, you just gonna look at it or...
谢谢 Thank you.
味道不错 Good meal.
所以 你的老公 So, your husband,
你们要在村子里会和? the two of you meet in college?
- 你的丈夫 - 噢 保罗? - Your husband. - Oh, Paul?
- 对 - 是的 - Yeah. - Yes.
对 Yeah.
好吧 他一定是疯了 Well, he must be crazy.
一个男人跑来徒步还说得过去 It's one thing for a man to take off on a hike like that,
但是把自己妻子也带来 but to allow your wife to do it?
完全是两码事 Whole other thing entirely.
弗兰克 不是每个人都和你想法一样好吗 Not everyone in the world thinks like you do, Frank.
是不一样 所以这个世界才被弄得一团糟 Nope, that's why everything is so messed up.
保罗和我只是做自己想做的 Paul and I kind of do our own thing.
你没什么想法吗 Don't you get any ideas.
我怎么可能有? How could I possibly?
你要和她一起出发吗? You gonna take off with her?
你有多余的帐篷吗? You have an extra tent?
还没走出大道 You'd be yelling for me
你就会喊我接你回来 to come get you before you got to the end of the driveway.
饭菜真的太棒了 This is really good.
# 宝贝 宝贝 做我的朋友 # Baby, baby, be my friend
这个纹身对你俩有什么意义呀? So, what does this tattoo mean to you guys, anyways?
那个 我俩都很喜欢马 Well, we both just really dig horses.
我们今天要离婚了 We're getting divorced today
觉得应该留点什么念想 and we thought we should do something that bonded us together.
噢 Oh.
好的 Okay.
难道你们没想过继续婚姻会过得更容易些? It hasn't occurred to you guys that it might be easier just to stay married?
也更省钱 Cheaper, too.
至少我们不会感到遗憾 At least we probably won't regret it.
过不下去就不必勉强了 分开也许是更好的选择 Couples don't necessarily stay married,but they tend to stay divorced.
有很多人找你去除纹身吧? You get a lot of people asking you about removing tattoos?
好吧 有时候是呢 Well, sometimes.
我背叛了他 I cheated on him.
这种事也是常有的 It happens.
她很抱歉的样子 She seems sorry.
我确实很抱歉 I am sorry.
谢丽尔 别这样 我们就不能... Cheryl, come on, can we just...
算了吧 小伙子 就当没发生过好了 Come on, man, wipe the slate clean.
可不止一两次 It's quite a big slate.
我背叛了他 很多次 I cheated on him a lot of times.
是这样念吗? 斯拽德? Is that right? "Stryed"?
不 是斯瑞德 No, it's "strayed."
比如 一只走失的狗 Like a stray dog.
表格里要求填新的姓氏 我... The form asked me what my new last name would be. I...
我查了查 I looked it up.
这个听起来很合适 It just sounded right.
办好了 You're all set.
这些资料你们要自己去寄 You're going to have to mail them yourselves.
我们一起度过了美好又疯狂的七年 It's been a wonderful and crazy seven years.
再见 Goodbye,
谢丽尔·斯瑞德 Cheryl Strayed.
买到你需要的了吗? Got what you needed?
买到了 Yes.
终于不用吃冷粥了 Now I don't have to eat cold mush anymore.
我能吃热粥了 I can eat hot mush.
压根就没有丈夫什么的和你一起 对吧? There's no husband, is there?
没有 我是指 曾经有 No. I mean, there was,
但他在明尼阿波利斯市 不在太平洋屋脊步道 but he's in Minneapolis, not on the PCT.
我那么说 是因为当时挺怕你的 I said that 'cause I was scared of you.
嗯 我懂的 Yeah, I knew that.
不怪你 Can't say I blame you.
你想过放弃吗? Do you ever think about quitting?
噢 差不多每两分钟就想一次 Oh, only once every two minutes or so.
一路上 艰难不断 Everything hurts. All the time.
- 你觉得我应该放弃吗? - 是的 - You think I should quit? - Yes, I do.
不过 别听我的 该死的 我已经放弃一大堆了 Don't listen to me. Hell, I've quit a bunch of stuff.
辞了职 离了婚 Quit jobs, quit marriages.
徒步的第一天就放弃了 I'd have quit that hike after the first day.
你后悔过吗? You regret any of them?
已经没得选了 I didn't have a choice.
再没有机会再去做那些事了 I just couldn't do them no more.
我这一生平淡无奇 不曾有其他选择 Never been a time when there was a fork in my road.
是啊 Yeah.
人人都差不多 That's about the size of it.
保重 Be careful.
- 好的 - 很高兴遇见你 - All right. - Nice meeting you.
很高兴见到你 弗兰克 谢谢你 Nice meeting you. Thank you, Frank!
第9天
1995年4月21日 你能接受真正的我吗? 可以吗? 加利福尼亚
琼尼·米歇尔和谢丽尔·斯瑞德
Joni Mitchell 加拿大有着重要影响力的传奇音乐家 画家 诗人
太好了! Yes!
好了 Okay.
噢 我的天 Oh, my God.
噢 天啊! Oh, my God!
第10天
斯瑞德 你可真棒啊 You're doing good, Strayed.
一天就走了五到七英里 Five to seven miles a day.
照这个速度 得二十年才能到达目的地 At this rate,you'll be finished in about 20 years.
我一点也不饿 I'm not hungry.
不想念那些好吃的 I don't miss food.
不想墨西哥卷饼 不想薯条 不想鳄梨酱 I don't miss tacos, chips and guac.
一点也不怀念明尼阿波利斯的大雪 这点我确定 I don't miss Minneapolis snow,that's for sure.
我不想念玛格丽塔酒 I don't miss margaritas.
为了喝一小口我愿意杀一条蛇 I'd kill a snake for a sip.
我又不是瘾君子 我能控制自己 It's not like I'm some junkie.I'm in control.
对啊 就像每个吸毒的人一样? Yeah, like everyone is with drugs?
我是经验主义者 I'm an experimentalist.
对一切都愿意尝试 I'm the girl who says yes instead of no.
第12天
80英里
嗨! Hi!
谢丽尔·斯瑞德? Cheryl Strayed?
噢 是的 嗨 Oh, yeah, hi!
我... 我认识你吗? I... Do I know you?
我... 我在徒步登记簿上看到过你的名字 I... I saw your name in the trail register.
你是唯一的女性 You're the only woman in there.
是的 Right.
我是格雷格! I'm Greg!
很高兴见到你! Nice to meet you!
我要下来了 I'm coming down.
噢 好的! Oh, great!
不好意思 没想到会有人来 Sorry. I wasn't expecting any visitors.
你一天走多少英里啊? So how many miles a day are you doing?
现在平均是每天二十二英里 I'm averaging 22 at the moment.
那你明天就到肯尼迪草原了? You'll be in Kennedy Meadows by tomorrow?
但愿吧 Hope so.
我每天差不多只走... I'm only managing about...
十一二英里的样子 11 or 12.
头几个星期总是很难熬 Well, the first couple of weeks are always hard.
即使有了充分的准备和训练 And you do all that preparation and training,
还是会有意想不到的痛苦和煎熬 and nothing prepares you for the pain and the heat.
不过 我们挑错了时间 Yeah, we picked the wrong year, though.
你... 要绕过雪乐山吗? You... bypassing the Sierra?
当然 Sure.
我要绕开一切 有什么不对吗? I'll bypass anything. Should I?
噢 那里基本上不能通行了 Oh, it's completely socked in.
下了十年来最大的一场雪 Biggest snowfall in a decade or so.
没人能顺利过去的 Yeah, nobody's getting through that.
那么... Say...
我们约在肯尼迪草原见如何? how 'bout we make a plan up in Kennedy Meadows?
我... 我要在那好好休息几天 I'm... I'm staying there for a few days to rest up.
好啊 Yeah.
多谢了 Thanks.
能约好再次相见 我... Let's make a plan. I...
觉得那应该对我有帮助 Think that'd be good for me.
好的 Great.
我好像怀孕了 I think I'm pregnant.
什么? What?
谁的? Who's the father?
我不知道 I don't know.
我是说... I mean...
我大概知道 不太确定 I think I have an idea.
大概知道? You have an idea?
你他妈在逗我吗? Are you fucking kidding me?
看看你怎么糟蹋自己的? What are you doing to yourself?
这桌结帐 麻烦了 Can we have the check, please?
妈的! 去买孕检试纸和铁铲 Shit. Pregnancy test and a shovel.
你必须得在我面前做测试 如果你怀孕了 You're going to do this in front of me,and if you're pregnant,
我们就去找你大概想到的人 想想对策 we're gonna pay visit to your "idea" and make a plan.
下一个! Next please!
# 给我一个爱你的理由 # Give me a reason to love you
# 这理由是 # This is the beginning
# 永恒时光的开端 # Of forever and ever
# 是时候离开了 # It's time to move over
# 这就是我理想的模样 # It's all I want to be
# 给我一个爱你的理由 # Give me a reason to love you
# 给我一个理由 # Give me a reason to be
# 成为一个女人 # A woman
# 我只想成为一个女人 # I just wanna be a woman
不需要什么对策 There's no plan to make.
我不会要这个孩子的 I'm not gonna have this baby.
我不知道从什么时候开始变成这么个烂人 I don't know when I became such a piece of shit.
我曾经坚强... I was strong...
有责任感 Responsible.
有追求 I wanted things in life.
我曾经那么好 你知道的 I was good, you know?
我毁了自己的婚姻 I ruined my marriage,
现在正毁掉剩余的人生 and now I'm ruining the rest of my life.
我要回到那家商店 I gotta go back to that store.
一步一步走回去 I'm gonna walk myself back to the woman
回到妈妈眼中的那个我 my mother thought I was.
我要重回美好生活 I'm gonna put myself in the way of beauty.
你他妈在说什么? What the hell are you talking about?
又被一块该死的巨石挡住了 In the way of another fucking giant rock.
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# 也许你的其他女友 # Maybe your other girlfriends
# 不能通过考试 # Couldn't pass the test
来啊 布鲁斯 和我一起唱 Come on, Bruce. Sing with me.
# 如果你足够坚强 已敞开怀抱迎接爱情 # Well, if you're rough and ready for love
# 亲爱的 我已足够坚强# Honey, I'm tougher than...
# 比所有人都坚强 # The rest
嘿 Hey, there.
她来了! There she is!
嘿! Hey!
- 你做到了! - 我做到了! - You made it! - I made it!
好了 伙计们? Okay, guys?
这是谢丽尔 This is Cheryl.
和她的巨无霸 And Monster.
巨无霸? "Monster"?
你是说我的背包吗? My pack?
不开玩笑了 你要喝点什么? Okay, what can I get you?
Snapple 饮料品牌
斯奈普 我做梦都想喝斯奈普柠檬汁 Snapple. I've been dreaming of Snapple Lemonade.
还想吃薯条 能吃的都行 And potato chips. Any kind of potato chips.
- 真的吗? - 多谢 - Any kind? - Thank you.
- 我有现金 - 不 不用了! 我请客 - I have cash. - No, no, no! My treat.
谢谢 Thank you.
你包里真没有斯奈普吗? Seriously, you have no Snapple in that pack?
我倒想啊! I wish!
站稳咯 Stay.
- 恭喜 - 谢谢你们 - Congratulations. - Thank you.
真希望我来到这也有人给我喝彩 I wish I'd gotten applause like that when I walked in.
他们说别给动物喂食 Okay! I know they said don't feed the animals,
但我觉得这个场合比较特殊 but I figured this would be a special occasion.
给 你的饮料和薯条 One Snapple and chips.
太好了 That's perfect.
稍作休息后 那边艾德会在营地 When you're done here, Ed over there
给你做晚饭 will cook you dinner down at the campsite.
那真是超棒 That would be amazing.
谢谢你 Thank you.
艾德是超棒 我们都叫他棒棒的艾德 Ed is amazing. We call him Amazing Ed.
亲爱的 Sweetheart.
看到这个时 你已经在莫哈韦沙漠 If you're reading this, then you've walked 100 miles
行走一百英里了 through the Mojave Desert.
无论我们之间发生了什么 Whatever else has happened between us,
不管你我是否还在赌气 however angry we are, or were, at each other,
我都以你为傲 满怀敬意 I am so proud of you and in awe of you.
这话还是等你成功后再说吧 Or, I will be, once you've done it.
我写这个时 你刚刚离开 As I write, you've only just left,
所以实际上 你还什么都没做 so actually, you've done almost nothing at all.
跟我一个样! Like me!
这样我们还能做朋友 So we can still be friends.
来自明尼阿波利斯的思念 Minneapolis misses you.
嗨 谢丽尔 Hey, Cheryl!
- 饭好了! - 太好了! - Come and get it! - Okay, great!
你不是来徒步的? So you're not a hiker?
我和你不同 Not like you.
每年夏天我都来这 跟真正的徒步者呆在一起 I just come up here every summer to hang out with the real hikers.
你真让我着迷 You fascinate me.
我算不上真正的徒步者 I'm not a real hiker.
你可是在酷热的沙漠里徒步了一百英里 You just hiked 100 miles through the desert heat.
差点都没命了 And it nearly killed me.
需要帮助吗? You want some help?
我看起来像需要帮助吗? Do I look like somebody who needs help?
你的厚底靴尺码太小了 Your boots. They're too small.
所以才会挤坏脚趾甲 That's why you're losing toenails.
是呢 你说得对 Yeah. You're right.
你不说我还没发现呢 I only just realized it the second you said that.
我还以为穿靴子本来就很伤脚 I thought they were supposed to hurt that bad.
那怎么办? What am I supposed to do?
我没钱买新的了 I don't have any money to buy new boots.
- 你这双是在户外用品店买的吗? - 是的 - Did you get them at REI? - Yeah.
REI 是美国也是全球最大的户外用品连锁零售组织
你打电话跟他们说明情况 他们就会把新靴子 Well, you call 'em, you tell 'em, and they'll have new boots
送到你停歇的下一站 sent to your next stop.
真的吗? Seriously?
你的背包 太恐怖了 And your pack, it's insane.
得稍加规整 We need to do a little pruning.
那我就挑出那些 Okay, so I'm gonna pick out
对你没用的东西 the stuff that's useless to you.
你可以把它们放在免用箱里 不然就得给我个 And you can leave it in the free box unless you can give me a good reason
保留它们的理由 why you need it with you.
- 行 - 行吗? - Okay. - Okay?
这个你要干吗用? How's this working for you?
我身上有异味 I stink.
一直都有 只有腋窝好点 I stink all the time. And my armpits are the least of it.
这些用得顺手吗? Are you having much fun with these?
从没用过 I've never used them once.
我也不知道为什么要带锯子 I don't know what I was thinking with the saw.
这些读物烧了吧? You burning what you read?
你要我烧书? You want me to burn books?
1993年5月10日德国纳粹大肆焚书
我向你保证 你不会变成纳粹的 I know you're not gonna become a Nazi, I promise you.
但是你得减轻背包的重量啊 But you are gonna make your pack a lot lighter.
那么 肯尼迪草原之前的内容全都撕掉 Okay? So... Everything before Kennedy Meadows...
等等 这些不能烧 Wait. Not those.
永远都不能烧 These will never be burned.
这可会增加你的负重啊 It's your weight.
夜间我不拍照 I don't take pictures at night.
从没用过 Never.
这一整条都要吗? You... You need the whole roll?
哪个女人远足会带十二个安全套啊 What woman goes on a hike and brings 12 condoms.
嗨 艾德! Hey, Ed!
稍等 Wait just a minute.
你们会把靴子送到那吗? But you'll just send the boots there?
我什么都不用做吗? I don't have to do anything?
太感谢了 Thank you so much.
你们公司永远都是我的最爱 You will be my favorite company forever and ever.
好的 Okay.
太好了 Great.
詹姆斯·米切纳哪里不好了? So what's wrong with James Michener?
他废话连篇 His crap is what's wrong.
你读了他的哪本书... And which of his books have you read that are so...
一本都没读 I haven't read any of his books.
我读的都是像艾德丽安·里奇和 I read things like Adrienne Rich
弗兰纳里·奥康纳这些人的书 and Flannery O'Connor.
再说了 你也喜欢他们的 Which you do, too, now, by the way.
他们的书对你没有影响力吗? Doesn't it make a difference to you?
我也不知道该怎么说 I don't know what to say.
我爱死詹姆斯·米切纳了! I love James Michener!
还会一直都爱下去的! And I'm not going to stop loving him!
你会觉得很古怪吧 It must be so weird for you.
什么事? What?
你在我这个年纪时没我这么世故 That I'm just so much more sophisticated than you were at my age, you know?
那是计划中的事 Yeah, that was the plan.
什么计划? What was the plan?
我一直都想你比我更精于世故 I always wanted you to be more sophisticated than me.
只是没想到这样有时也会受伤 I just didn't realize it would hurt sometimes.
你怎么受得了我的废话? Why do you put up with my crap?
你穿这条裙子美极了 You look so pretty in that dress.
我马上再给你做一件 And I'll make you another one soon.
下雪了 你怎么打算? What'd you decide about the snow?
可以的话 我想继续前行 Well, I'd like to push on, if it's possible.
艾德跟我说很多徒步者到太平洋屋脊步道后 Well, Ed told me a lot of the hikers
会再走四十英里去小道 went up the PCT another 40 miles to Trail Pass.
- 是吗? - 那里也是 - Yeah? - And that's where they're getting forced off
大雪阻止他们前进的地方 by the snow.
然后他们会坐车去里诺 再去特拉基 And they're catching a bus up to Reno and on to Truckee,
在低海拔地带重返步道 just, rejoining the trail at a lower elevation.
我可不是为坐车玩而来的 I didn't come out here to ride buses.
那你也不是为了 You probably didn't come out here
从山上滑落而来的吧 to slide off the side of a mountain, either.
那倒是 True.
如果你担心自己在自欺欺人 If you're worried about cheating yourself,
那就走到更远的地方去 just make your hike longer.
比如 到胡德山 You know, just... walk to Mount Hood
或去众神之桥 or the Bridge of the Gods.
众神之桥? The Bridge of the Gods?
我喜欢这个名字 I like the sound of that.
不管怎样 别搞垮了自己 Either way, don't beat yourself up.
我觉得你是那种喜欢搞垮自己的人 You... you strike me as someone who's done plenty of that already.
我可以骑马吗? Can I ride my horse?
芭比·格雷 Bobbi Grey?
抱歉 I'm sorry.
治疗要多长时间? 我还可以骑马吗? How long? Can I ride my horse?
我们会给你做放射治疗 We'll be giving you radiation
来缩小你脊椎旁的肿瘤 to shrink the size of the tumors along your spine.
轻轻一震就能粉碎肿瘤 The slightest jolt, it could crumble.
那要多长时间? How long?
亲爱的 你还好吗? You all right, honey?
我没事 Yeah, I'm fine.
你好 我是保罗 Hi, this is Paul.
来电请留言 得空我就回电 Leave a message and I'll call you back whenever I can.
抱歉这么晚还打给你 Hey, sorry to call so late.
谢谢 Thank you.
里诺 美国著名离婚城市
我在里诺 要是你也在 我们可以再离一次婚 I'm in Reno. If you were here, we could get divorced again.
总之 我... 我还活着 Anyway, I... I'm still alive.
我的情况就是这样 And that's all my news.
我还在徒步中学到了很多 And the sum total of what I've learned on my hike.
不说了 再见 Okay. Bye.
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我是谢丽尔 Hi. I'm Cheryl.
我是个独自远足的女背包客 想搭便车 I'm an unaccompanied female hitchhiker.
可以坐你的车吗 Would it be okay if I got into your car
你不会把我先奸杀后分尸吧? so that you can rape and dismember me?
你是往北开吗? Hey, going north?
是的 Yeah, I am, actually.
好的 我想搭便车 走大概十二英里 Okay, I just need a ride about 12 miles up.
- 你的背包不小啊 - 是啊 - Well, that's quite a backpack you got there. - Thanks.
我载不了你 车里空间不够 I can't offer you a ride because I don't have any room.
什么意思? What do you mean?
我的车已满满当当了 Yeah, I'm packed to the gills.
我是吉米·卡特 Jimmy Carter.
无妨 No relation.
我开车全国跑 为《流浪时报》采访流浪汉 I interview hobos for the Hobo Times. Drive all over the USA.
我得告诉你 女流浪者可是难得几回见啊 And I have to tell you. Lady hobos? Hard to find.
你误会了 我不是流浪汉 I think you're mistaken. I'm not a hobo.
还有 真有《流浪时报》这种刊物吗? Second of all, that's a real thing, the Hobo Times?
有啊 还能报销我租车和加油的费用 Yeah, it's real enough to pay for my rent and gas.
话说回来 你流落街头多久了? So, how long have you been out on the road?
我不是流落街头 是在徒步太平洋屋脊步道 I'm not "on the road." I'm hiking the Pacific Crest Trail.
那里今年下了雪 I just had to bypass a chunk of it
所以我得绕一大段路 because there was a snowfall this year.
好吧 既然你不是流浪汉 你住哪呢? Okay, so if you're not a hobo, where do you live?
我目前居无定所 I'm between places right now.
徒步结束后 也许会住到波特兰 I'm probably going to live in Portland when I get off the PCT.
真是不可思议 This is so fucking cool. I mean...
两年来我只碰见了一个女流浪汉 I've only spoken to maybe one other female hobo in two years.
再次申明 我不是流浪汉 Let me reiterate to you, I am not a hobo.
你会这么说可能是因为女性大多不会离开家庭 And that's probably because women cannot walk out of their lives.
她们要抚养小孩 They've got kids to take care of,
照顾父母 they've got parents to look after.
你说话真像女权主义者啊 You sound like a feminist.
我就是 I am.
很好 很棒 我很欣赏你们 That's excellent. That's fantastic. I love feminists.
你跟我说你不是流浪汉 So you're trying to tell me you're not a hobo,
也就是说你有工作咯? so that means you have a job then, right?
我做过的工作可不止一个 I've had a whole lot of different jobs.
几年前 我还在上学 Up until a couple of years ago, I was studying.
希望你不会觉得我的问题触及你隐私 I hope you don't think this is too personal,
我发现人们通常都是因为受到创伤 but I've noticed it's often personal trauma
才脱离原有生活 that forces people out of their life
步入流浪的 你也是这样的吗? and into the hobo life. Would you say that's been the case for you?
这就是我的生活 不过是抽点时间出来走走 This is my life. I'm just taking a little time out.
才不是什么流浪生活 This is not a hobo life.
我不知道还要怎么跟你说 I don't know what else to tell you.
- 能拍张照吗? - 不行! 这... - Can I get a shot? - No! That...
这照片会登在秋季的期刊上 Yeah, this should be in the fall issue.
我的几个作品还在其他杂志上刊登过 A couple of my pieces have been in some other magazines.
《哈珀斯》对我的作品也有兴趣 Harper's has expressed interest.
《哈珀斯》? Harper's?
是纽约的一份杂志 It's a New York magazine.
很时尚 很牛逼... Pretty swanky, kind of a big deal...
我知道《哈珀斯》是杂志 我还想投稿呢 Yeah, I know what Harper's is. I want to write for Harper's one day.
我可不想自己的照片出现在杂志插页 成为本月流浪者 I don't really feel like being their centerfold Bum of the Month.
这是什么? What's this?
给流浪者的爱心包裹 多谢了! Hobo care package. Thanks a lot!
你的狗叫什么名字? What's your dog's name?
Stevie Ray 20世纪最伟大的吉他手之一
史蒂维· 雷 他去世的那天我得到了它 Stevie Ray. Got him the day he died.
它是我眼中的另一个史蒂维· 雷 The other Stevie Ray, I mean.
我很喜欢史蒂维· 雷 I love Stevie Ray.
伙计 放首《被爱击中》 Hey, put on Love Struck.
你上车的那一刻我就想听这歌了 Just came to me the second you got in this car.
闭嘴 蜘蛛! 亏你说得出口! Oh, shut up, Spider! Jesus!
别理他 他就是个老淫棍 Ignore him. He's nothing but a horny old bastard.
徒步那见鬼的步道 肯定很艰辛吧 You must be pretty tough, hiking this fucking trail.
能搭你们的便车 I'm in a car with you, taking a ride.
也说不上有多艰辛 That's not very tough.
好可爱的小男孩 几岁了? That's a cute little boy. How old is he?
那时他八岁 He was eight.
我非常抱歉 I'm so sorry.
他骑自行车时被一辆货车撞了 He got hit by a truck when he was riding his bike.
在五年前 Five years ago.
他也是个捣蛋鬼 跟她妈一样 He was a tough motherfucker,too. Just like his mom.
我十分抱歉 I'm really sorry.
我知道了 甜心 I know you are, sweetheart.
我再也不是以前的自己了 I was never me.
别这样好吗? 别这样 这事儿没完 Don't. Okay? Don't. It's not over.
我们要找人来帮你 然后我们一起抗争 We're gonna find somebody who can help you and we are gonna fight this!
我一直是... I was always...
一个母亲或者妻子的角色 A mother or a wife.
从来没能驾驭自己的人生 I was never even in the driver's seat of my own life.
我觉得时间还很多 你知道吗 I thought there was so much time, you know?
可这时... And just when...
一下子来了这么多事儿 So many things were beginning.
哦! Oh, well!
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这天气一定是在逗我 You've got to be kidding me.
坚持住 Hang on.
好了 All right.
# 我确信可以 # I surely would...
你可以别哼那首歌了吗? Can you stop humming that song?
开心的人就是要唱歌! Happy people sing!
闭嘴 Shut up.
# 我坐在火车站里 # I'm sitting in the railway station
# 拿到了我的车票 # Got a ticket for my destination
# 阳光在我身后 # The sun is right behind my back
# 那么真正的北方就在那边 # So true north should be over there
# 我不会迷特么的路 # I will not lose this fucking track
# 或者我最后会在特拉华 # Or I'll end up in Delaware
# 波特兰边界 # bound Portland bound
# 希望我在波特兰边界 # I hope I am Portland bound
嘿 Hey!
我在哪? Where am I?
加利福尼亚! California!
真见鬼的搞笑啊 Fucking hilarious.
普卢默斯县! Plumas County!
你迷路了吗? Are you lost?
没有! No!
只是搞砸了 Just screwed.
嘿 美女 Hey, beauty.
嘿 我的小姑娘 Hey, my Lady.
她救过我一命 She saved my life.
你知道的 在我离开你爸之后 You know, after I left your dad.
我知道 I know.
我不会让你承诺什么的 I'm not going to make you promise anything.
这事儿足够让你难过了 This is hard enough on you as it is.
但行好事足矣 Just please try and do the kindest thing.
第32天
回来! Come back!
回来 Come back.
回来啊! Come back!
来 这能让你暖和点儿 Here you go. This should keep you warm.
我明早和列夫一起来 I'll be back in the morning with Leif.
我爱你 I love you.
你是我的中心 You're the center of me.
我的一切 Everything I am.
爱你 Love.
她怎么样了? How's she doing?
医生说这会持续一年 The doctor said it would be a year.
已经一个月了 该死的一个月! It's been a month. One fucking month!
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
我会为她祈祷的 I'll pray for her.
去他的圣帕特里克 Fucking Saint Patrick.
Saint Patrick 爱尔兰传说中的守护者
让你的圣徒们见鬼去吧 Go to hell, all you saints.
感谢上帝为我指路 Thank you, God, for showing me the way.
好像他在乎似的 As if He gives a shit.
抱歉 但上帝是个无情的贱人 I'm sorry, but God is a ruthless bitch.
是的 我需要找到他 Yeah, well, I really need him.
事情紧急 他快特么回家 It's urgent.Tell him to get the fuck home.
你特么去哪了? Where the fuck have you been?
我一整天都在医院里! 她快死了 I've been at the hospital all day!She's dying.
- 你别这么说! - 你还不懂吗? - Don't say that!- You understand that?
- 她不会死的 - 她会 她快要死了 - She can't die.- She can. She is dying.
别说了! Stop it!
她不能死 She can't die.
那时有杀手 有杜比 There was Killer, and Doobie.
杜比! Doo-bie!
还有摩托车手丹 And Motorcycle Dan.
摩托车手丹... 哇! Motorcycle Dan... wow!
我想成为他那样的人 I wanted to be like that guy.
如果你把脸贴到玻璃上... If you press your face against the glass...
... 可以看到一小片苏必利尔湖 ...you can see a little slice of Lake Superior.
一个海景房 A room with a view.
她说 She said.
我这一生都想要一个海景房 All my life, I've always wanted a room with a view.
天啊 她没完没了地说 Jesus, she just never stops.
几年来 我装作她对我无足轻重 The past few years,I've acted like she was nothing to me.
但是... But...
事实上 她是我的一切 really, she was everything.
你在干什么? What are you doing?
嘘! 在祈祷 Shh! Praying.
别说话 Shut up.
我在向这个操蛋的宇宙祈祷... I'm praying to the whole fucking universe...
希望能有个神 hoping there's a God.
因为我需要个奇迹 一个见鬼的奇迹! Because I want a miracle.I want a fucking miracle!
我们的母亲不会在45岁就死去 Our mother isn't going to die at 45.
# 你在燃烧 你在思念吗? # Are you burning and yearning?
该死的第36天
# 你可曾感到难过? # Do you ever feel blue?
# 你想回来吗? # And do you think of returning?
# 世界如何待你? # How's the world treating you?
我迫不及待想见她 I can't wait to see her face.
她见到你一定很高兴 She'll be so happy to see you.
见到你很高兴... So happy to see you...
我有多爱你们? How much do I love you?
不止 No.
这么多吗? This much?
这么多? This much?
我被卡住了! 不能再多了 I'm stuck! I can't go wider.
我不能再多了! I can't go wider!
# 世界如何待你? # How's the world treating you?
进门前 请先到护士台登记
我们在她眼睛上放了冰块 We put ice on her eyes.
什么? What?
她捐献了自己的眼角膜 所以... She wanted to donate her corneas, so...
哦 我的天 Oh, my God.
去你的 贱人! Fuck you, bitch!
你特么想干嘛? What the fuck do you want?
去你的 我们走 Fuck you, let's go.
"el condor pasa "《山鹰之歌》Simon & Garfunkel
# 我甘愿做一只麻雀 # I'd rather be a sparrow
# 而不是蜗牛 # than a snail
# 我愿意 # Yes, I would
# 如果我可以 # If I could
# 我一定会 # I surely would
# 我宁做斧锤也不做铁钉 # I'd rather be a hammer than a nail
# 是的 我愿意 # Yes, I would
# 我甘愿做一片森林而不是一条街 # I'd rather be a forest than a street
# 如果我可以 # If I could
# 只要我可以 # If I only could
# 我一定会 # I surely would
我去 Fuck it.
你能别哼那首歌了吗? Can you stop humming that song?
你怎么回事? What is wrong with you?
我不知道 你怎么回事呢? I don't know. What's wrong with you?
我很开心 开心的人就是要唱歌! I'm happy. Happy people sing!
为什么开心? 我们什么都没有 妈妈 什么都没有 Why are you happy?We have nothing, Mom. Nothing.
我们富有爱 We're rich in love.
哦 我的天 求你了 Oh, my God, please.
别这么说 Don't even start with that.
我们俩都是全职服务员 We're both waitressing full-time.
我们是学生啊 We're students.
我们的余生都被贷款纠缠着 We'll have loans the rest of our lives.
这个房子也摇摇欲坠 一切都要靠你自己 This house...is falling apart. You're all by yourself
因为你嫁给了一个混账酒鬼施虐狂 because you married some abusive alcoholic asshole.
我回家了 你却在唱歌? And I come home and you're singing?
你还不明白我们的处境吗? What part of it do you not get?
我什么都明白 相信我 There's nothing I don't get, believe me.
但是又能怎样? But then what?
谢丽尔 如果我只能教你一件事... Cheryl, if there's one thing I could teach you...
就是怎样找到最好的自己 It's how to find your best self.
找到后 如何坚持幸福地活下去 And when you do,how to hold onto it for dear life.
这就是你最好的自己 And this is your best self.
我正在努力 I'm trying.
我会后悔嫁给一个混账酒鬼施虐狂吗? Do I regret marrying an abusive alcoholic asshole?
不会 No.
从未后悔过 因为我生了你 Not for a second. Because I got you.
还有你弟弟 And your brother.
你看看现在的样子? See how it works?
过得不易... It isn't easy...
但是值得 But it's worth it.
肯定有比现在还遭的日子 There's going to be a lot worse days than this.
可以被生活扼杀... And you can let them kill you...
但是 我想活下去 But, I don't know... I want to live.
我想活下去 "I want to live."
你不能停滞不前 享受凄惨的快乐生活 You couldn't even stick around and enjoy your miserable happy life.
第49天
你这有我的包裹吧? 我叫谢丽尔·斯瑞德 I think you have packages for me?My name is Cheryl Strayed.
REI的新靴子吗? New boots from REI?
是 Yes.
你穿那个走了多远了? How far did you walk in those?
大概五十英里 你确定没有别的包裹了? About 50 miles.You sure there's not another package?
我确定 而且女士 如果你缠着胶带走了五十英里 I'm sure. And, lady,if you walked 50 miles
这就是你应得的包裹 in duct tape, you got the right package.
两美元一瓶斯奈普 It's two bucks for the Snapple.
我不要 I'll pass.
谢谢了 Thanks.
你喜欢我的鞋吗? You like my shoes?
最爱的谢丽尔 你已经走了一半了 Dearest Cheryl, you made it halfway.
六百英里 见鬼! Six-hundred miles. Damn!
我去找艾梅 她说是你让自己的旅途变长的 I ran into Aimee. She said you were making your hike longer.
你决定什么时候结束了吗? Did you decide where you'll finish?
请让我知道 我会给你寄一管护脚霜 Let me know,I'll send a tube of foot cream.
我很抱歉 在你离开之前那次通话时打断了你 I'm sorry if I cut you short on the phone before you left.
我猜自己依然是怨恨你的 I still resent you, I guess.
有趣的是... The funny thing is...
该死 我得承认... hell, I'll admit it...
我想你 I miss you.
徒步的时候一定要带足水 Be sure to take plenty of water with you for the trail.
每二十英里就有一个水箱 对吧? There's a water tank 20 miles up, right?
是的 但是外面有一百华氏度呢 Yep. But it's way over 100 degrees out there.
一定会留很多汗 That's a lot of sweat.
好吧 谢谢 Okay. Thanks.
你好 Howdy.
有史黛丝·约翰逊的东西吧 You should have something for Stacey Johnson.
我去查一下 I'll go check.
嘿 你在徒步太平洋屋脊步道吗? Hey, are you hiking the PCT?
是啊 Yeah.
你也是吗? Are you?
你是个女的耶! You're a woman!
你遇到了叫格雷格的人吗? You come across a guy named Greg?
是的 不久前在肯尼迪草场... Yeah. A while ago, at Kennedy Meadows...
当时我对徒步了解的比现在还少 when I knew even less than I do now.
好吧 他放弃了 Well, he quit.
什么? 格雷格? What? Greg?
他扛不住大雪 明年再回来 He couldn't deal with the snow.He's coming back next year.
哇哦 Wow.
格雷格退出了我却还在这? Greg quit and I'm still here?
为此要干一杯 Cheers to that.
你寂寞吗? You get lonely?
实话说 我在现实生活中比在这里寂寞 Honestly, I think I'm lonelier in my real life than out here.
当然 我想念我的朋友 但是... Yes, I miss my friends,of course, but...
又没有人会在家等我 it's not like anybody's waiting for me at home.
你呢? 为什么在这? How about you? Why are you here?
我不知道 只是想找寻一下自我 I don't know. I just need to find something in myself, you know?
我觉得徒步旅行会有所帮助 I think the trail is good for that.
我的意思是 看 I mean, look.
如果你愿意 徒步能让你充实自我 This has the power to fill you up again if you let it.
我妈以前老是说一些能将我逼疯的话 My mother used to say something that drove me nuts.
"日出 日落 天天都有" "There's a sunrise and a sunset every day...
"欣赏不欣赏 在于你的选择" "...and you can choose to be there for it.
" 你可以全身心地感受美 " "You can put yourself in the way of beauty."
我敬佩这样的女人 My kind of woman.
她是我这一生的挚爱 没有什么... She was the love of my life. There's nothing else...
好说的了 to say.
这里怎么没有沙发和舒洁纸巾之类的鬼东西 I thought there'd be couches and Kleenex and shit.
那是五十美元一小时治疗的配置 That's 50-bucks-an-hour therapy.
这是十美元一小时 This is 10-bucks-an-hour therapy.
为什么你会因为母亲的去世而堕落? Why were you destroyed by your mother's death?
这就是你的工作? 告诉丧失亲人的人他们悲伤过度了? Is that your job? To tell the bereaved they're grieving too much?
人们表达悲伤的方式各不同 我想知道你的 People grieve in all sorts of different ways. I'm asking about yours.
我的很不好吗? Is mine so bad?
你吸海洛因 对男人来者不拒 You're using heroin and having sex with anyone who asks.
我不觉得你做这些事的时候会感到快乐 I'm not sure these things are making you happy.
那你就错了 That's where you're wrong.
做这些事的时候 我感觉很好很快乐 When I'm doing them, I feel good and happy.
不做的时候 我只想死 When I'm not, I feel like I want to die.
你和你丈夫还有性生活吗? You sleep with your husband, too?
没有 我喜欢和男人保持单纯肉体关系 没有情感 No, I'm sort of like a guy about sex. I prefer to be detached.
你觉得男人就只是这样吗? You think that's what guys are like?
" 你在这里 "? "You are here"?
走到哪都能看到这海报 真特么讨厌 I see that poster everywhere, and I fucking hate it.
为什么告诉孩子他们不重要? Why would you ever want to teach a child that they don't matter?
你觉得你重要吗? Did you feel you mattered?
我知道我很重要 I know I mattered.
那么 是谁背叛了你? So who detached from you?
算了 知道吗? Right. You know what?
光是谈话对我来说没用的 This is not going to work. This is not about talking.
" 想尝尝我拳头的滋味吗 ?" "You want a knuckle sandwich?"
想尝尝我拳头的滋味吗? You want a knuckle sandwich?
走 走 走! 到车里去 Go, go, go! Go get in the car.
进车里 Get in the car.
快滚! Get the fuck out of here!
臭婊子! Fucking whore!
我要杀了你! I'm going to kill you!
我要用新靴子教训教训你 你这个混蛋 I'll kick your ass with my new boots, you fucking asshole.
谢谢你 宝贝 Thank you, baby.
" 鸡蛋和培根 " "Eggs and bacon."
你想要鸡蛋和培根吗? You want some eggs and bacon?
宝贝? Baby?
没有雨 不再有伤痛 No more rain, no more pain.
即使一个普通的小孩在得到一双新鞋之后 "Even a child with normal feet was in love with the world...
也会爱上这个世界 "...after he had got a new pair of shoes."
弗兰纳里·奥康纳 Flannery O'Connor.
当代美国南方女作家
和 谢丽尔·斯瑞德 And Cheryl Strayed.
第56天
人的骨灰不像大火过后的灰烬 The ashes of a body aren't really like ashes from a fire.
如丝绸般柔软 更像... Soft and silky, they're more like...
浅色的鹅卵石与灰色砂砾的混合物 pale pebbles mixed with a gritty gray gravel.
我把大部分骨灰撒在了她的墓碑周围 I spread most of them around her grave.
但里面的大块部分... But some of the larger chunks...
被我放进嘴巴里... I put in my mouth...
整个都吞了下去 and I swallowed whole.
后来我和疯子乔... Then I moved to Portland...
一起搬去了波特兰 with crazy Joe.
第一次抽海洛因... The first time I smoked heroin...
我发出孩子般单纯的笑声... I laughed like a child...
像妈妈首饰盒里的小人一样一直旋转 and twirled around in my mother's jewelry box.
然后我们吸食了 Then we snorted it.
本来没打算注射的 But we were never going to shoot it.
真的 Never.
第一次注射的时候 我哀求着 The first time I shot up, I begged.
还要 还要 还要! More, more, more!
怎样 你觉得如何? How do you like it, how do you like it?
我生日后第一天... The day after my birthday...
一个男的向我勒索 a man asked me for money.
我真是求之不得呢 That's what I want
一周之后... A week after that...
终于有人祝我生日快乐了 somebody finally wished me happy birthday.
你简直愚蠢自私至极 竟然吸海洛因! Heroin? Of all the stupid, selfish things!
你为什么要这样糟践自己? Why are you doing this to yourself?
你他妈的别碰我! Don't you fucking touch me!
别跟我来这套! Don't play this game!
你来做什么? 我又没叫你来! Why did you even come? I didn't ask you to!
你就是想逞强当英雄罢了! You just want to be the hero!
对 或许吧! Yeah, maybe!
你为什么来? Why did you come here?
因为! Because!
就是因为要来 Just because.
见鬼 Fuck it.
水箱死哪儿去了? Where is this fucking tank?
不 No.
不! No!
该死 Shit.
第58天
千万别死在这里 Don't fucking die here.
三十分钟 Thirty minutes.
该死的碘片 Fucking iodine pills.
你有水吗? You got any water?
我可以分你们一些 但现在还不行 I'd give you some of mine, but it's not ready.
等碘片起作用 要半个小时 It takes about half an hour... with an iodine pill.
但首先 你必须将水过滤一遍 But you have to filter it first.
我们没有过滤器 We don't have a filter.
可以用我的 You can use mine.
你们有瓶子吗? Do you have a bottle?
有空啤酒罐 Got an empty beer can.
可以 Okay.
你在这里做什么? What are you doing out here?
在太平洋屋脊步道远足 Hiking the PCT.
怎么打发时间呢? So how can we kill the time?
我想到了一些方法 I can think of some ways.
她身材真好 对吧? She's got a real nice figure, doesn't she?
还要远足 我该走了 I have to keep hiking. I have to get going.
坐下吧 我们逗你玩呢 Sit down. We're just messing with your head.
我们也该走了 Yeah, we need to get going, too.
多谢 Thank you much.
不客气 Yeah.
以为你走了 Thought you were heading out.
我改变主意了 I changed my mind.
耍花招骗我们? Tried to trick us?
不 我只是改变主意了 No, I changed my mind.
衣服也换了 Changed your clothes, too.
我喜欢你的裤子 I like your pants.
你穿着很好看 They look good on you.
凸显出了你的腿型和翘臀 Show off your hips and legs and tight little ass.
请别这样说 Please don't say that.
男人不能赞美一下女人吗? Can't a guy give a girl a compliment anymore?
谢谢 Thank you.
你他妈的搞什么? What the hell are you doing?
我以为你迷路了 快滚过来 该走了! I thought you were lost. Get your ass over here, let's go!
敬独身在树林中的年轻女孩 Here's to a young girl alone in the woods.
第62天
欢迎来到俄勒冈
你好 俄勒冈的牛 Hello, Oregon cow.
1995年8月8日 但我已有约定 沉醉前还有一段路要走
罗伯特·弗罗斯特和谢丽尔·斯瑞德
Robert Frost 20世纪最受欢迎的美国诗人
阿什兰 1995
# 望向窗外 # Look out of any window
# 每一个早晨 每一个夜晚 # Any morning, any evening
# 每一天 # Any day
# 也许太阳闪耀着 # Maybe the sun is shining
# 鸟儿飞过天际 # Birds are winging
# 墨色的天下起瓢泼大雨 # Rain is falling from a heavy sky
# 我能为你做些什么 # What do you want me to do
# 一眼将你看穿 # To do for you to see you through...
你涂那款口红好看极了 That shade looks nice on you.
真的吗? Oh, you think?
天哪 Oh, my.
介不介意我说一句? Do you mind if I say something?
不介意 Sure.
你这么邋遢 The nicest lipstick in the world can't help a girl
就算是世界上最昂贵的口红也救不了你 if she doesn't take care of her personal hygiene.
我很注意个人卫生的 I've every intention of taking care of that.
亲爱的 个人卫生的重要性应该排在第一位 It really needs to be a priority, sweetie.
嗨 Hey.
我... 我在这条街上的一个音乐俱乐部工作 I... I work at a music club down the street.
今晚我们有向杰里·加西亚致敬的音乐会 We're honoring Jerry Garcia tonight.
- 你也来啊 - 哦 酷 - You should come along. - Oh. Cool.
你叫什么? What's your name?
谢丽尔 Cheryl.
别害怕 我不咬人 Don't worry, I don't bite.
我不介意被咬 I don't mind biting.
哦 天哪 不敢相信我竟然说出来了 Oh, my God. I can't believe I just said that.
不好意思 我一个人有段时间了 I'm so sorry. I've been on my own for a little while.
不是单身的意思 我以前有数段恋情 Not that I'm "on my own." I've been in a lot of relationships before.
只是独自徒步有一段时间了 I've just been hiking on my own for a while.
我会把你的名字列入客人名单的 Look, I'm gonna put your name on the guest list.
回见啊 Hope to see you later.
嗨 甜心 Hi, honey.
这是你的阿什兰盒子 Here is your Ashland box.
享受应得的休息 但别放松过头了 好吗? Enjoy some well-deserved rest, but don't overdo it, okay?
千里长征还未完呢 Still a lot to hike, no?
我说过你随时都可以放弃 I had said you can quit anytime.
但我现在收回那句话 But I take it back.
等你到达终点了 打电话给我 Call me when you get to the finish line.
寄上我的爱和吻 艾梅 Love and kisses, Aimee.
# 好像就是你的 # As it were your own
# 一脉相传 # It's a hand-me-down
# 思绪零散 # The thoughts are broken
# 也许不要唱出来 # Perhaps they're better
# 比较好 # Left unsung
# 我不知道 # I don't know
# 我一点都不在乎 # I don't really care
我认识你吗 Do I know you?
谢谢 Thanks.
# 让空气中 # Let there be song
# 充满乐音 # To fill the air
# 平静的湖面泛起涟漪 # Ripple in still water
# 既没有人投入鹅卵石 # When there is no pebble tossed
# 也没有风吹过 # Nor wind to blow
亲爱的保罗 Dear Paul,
今天早上醒来之后 在沙滩上写下了你的名字 I woke up this morning and wrote your name in the sand.
自从遇见你 每次到沙滩都会写下你的名字 I've done that on every beach I've been on ever since I met you.
这是最后一次了 But I'm not going to do it again.
我准备好写下人生新的篇章 I'm ready to move on.
# 宝贝 宝贝 做我的朋友 # Baby, baby, be my friend
徒步只剩下三百英里了 I have only another 300 miles left to walk.
我巴不得早早结束 I'm desperate for it to be over.
同时 我很害怕 But I'm terrified, too.
当旅行结束之后... When I'm done...
我会穷得叮当响 I'll only have two dimes to my name.
但我必须重新开始生活 But I'll have to start living.
虽然还没有准备好 And I'm nowhere near ready.
前方进入 胡德山 国家森林景区
求你了! 先生 等一下! Please! Sir, wait!
我已经关门了 I just closed.
里面有我的一份包裹吧? I think you have a package for me in there?
明天再来取不行吗? Could it wait until tomorrow?
里面有我急需的干净衣服 食物和电池 It has fresh clothes and food, and batteries I need.
好吧 Okay.
前提是你待会儿要得和我喝一杯 If you'll have a drink with me later.
没问题 Sure.
给 靓妹 There you go, good-looking.
谢谢 Thanks.
你喜欢喝潘趣酒吗? You like punch?
我调得很好 把能找到的所有酒混合起来 I make a good one. I throw every liquor I can find into a bucket
再倒几罐果汁在上面 and I pour a couple of cans of juice on top.
听着不错 Sounds good.
- 谢丽尔? - 是我 - Cheryl? - Yeah.
- 天哪 - 打烊了 伙计们 - Oh, my God. - We're closed, guys.
- 如果你的勇气拒绝你 - ... 超越你的勇气 - "If your nerve deny you... - "...go above your nerve."
- 艾米莉·迪金森 - 没错 - Emily Dickinson. - Yes.
但我已有约定 沉醉前还有一段路要走 "I have promises to keep and miles to go before I sleep."
沃尔特·惠特曼的? Walt Whitman?
不对 那是罗伯特·弗洛斯特的 No, that was Robert Frost.
惠特曼的是 保持好奇心 但不加以评判 The Whitman was, "Be curious, not judgmental."
没错 Yes.
上帝就是个冷酷的贱人 你把名字空出来了 "God is a ruthless bitch." You left the name off.
- 那是我写的 - 你是我们的英雄 - That one was me. - You're our hero.
好了 伙计们 要关门了 Okay, fellas, I'm shutting up now.
我们只想取回我们的包裹 We just wanted to pick up our post?
不行 抱歉 我已经为这位年轻女士开了一次门 No. I'm sorry. I already reopened for the young lady here.
不会再开一次 And I'm not gonna reopen again.
不需要再开了 不是还没关门嘛 But you wouldn't really have to reopen because you haven't closed yet.
他们的包裹就在这儿 And their packages are right there.
今晚让人够受累了 It's such a miserable night.
里面的东西可以让他们晚上好过点 Whatever's in them is gonna make the night just that much better.
你介意吗? Do you mind?
那是你的马吧? That your horse?
如果你想早上骑 她会让你骑的 If you want to take her out in the morning, she could do with it.
嘿 那露营的地方 是左边吗? 左边对吧? Hey, so the campsite,is it left? Left, right?
没错 Yeah.
晚安啦! 明天早上再见 Good night! I'll see you in the morning.
哦 Oh.
一号和二号 Number one and number two.
一点点就好 一点点就好 Just a little. Just a little.
棒极了! Wonderful!
谢丽尔 你一个人徒步这么久是怎么挺过来的? So, Cheryl, how do you deal with being on your own all the time?
我是说 我们互相做伴 还是厌烦不已 I mean, we're with each other and we're still sick of ourselves.
没有 我脑海里已经把不想去的地方都去过了 No. I've been to most of the places in my head that
只是我觉得多少 I didn't want to go to,but I feel like there's
有一些原因吧 我不过是... one or two that,for whatever reason, I just...
我知道了 I hear you.
我不会再急着去想那么些个女朋友了 There's a few girlfriends that I'm in no hurry to think about again.
我知道你在说谁 没错 I think I know exactly who you're talking about. Right?
我现在不想谈论这个 I don't want to talk about this right now.
又下雨! 晚安! Not again! Good night!
但行好事足矣 Just please try to do the kindest thing.
我们不必这么做 We don't have to do this.
她真的是病了很久 She's been really sick for a long time.
还有别的办法 There has to be another way.
我们没有钱帮它治疗 We don't have the money to do it right.
不能带它去看兽医 We can't go to a vet.
列夫 她会慢慢地 痛苦地死去 Leif, she's just going to die slowly and painfully.
但行好事足矣 Just please do the kindest thing.
嘿 弟弟 是我 Hey, brother, it's me.
我知道我们其实无家可归了 但是... Look, I know we don't have a home to go back to, but...
希望你知道 我要和你在一起 I want you to know I'm pulling you along with me.
我知道这很难 但是 It's been really hard, but
帮帮我 好吗? do me a favor, okay?
往前走走? Walk a little?
我爱你 I love you.
再见 Bye.
嘿 靓妹 Hey, good-looking.
我给你带了咖啡和甜甜圈 早上空气不错 I brought you coffee and a donut,fresh this morning.
谢谢 真的很感谢 Thanks. Really.
出发前要不再补充点必需品什么的? Why don't you come by for a refill before you head off?
我会的 谢谢 I will. Thanks.
早上好 伙计们 Good morning, fellas.
- 早上好 -早上好 - Morning.- Morning.
你有没有道号啊? So, you got a trail name?
就如同 昵称之类的 You know, like a nickname.
我们给你取了个道号 We've got one for you.
- 真的吗 - 叫"太平洋屋脊步道女王" - Really.- Queen of the PCT.
够了 Come on.
在你身边 You've just got so many stories
总有人为你做事 想帮你摆脱困境 about people doing things for you and wanting to help you out.
从来没有人给过我们什么 I mean, nobody ever gives us anything.
事实上 没有人为我们做过任何事 No one ever does anything for us, in fact.
请您过来 补充给养 女王陛下 But please, please,come and get your refill, Your Majesty.
女王殿下不会真去补充给养 Yeah, Your Majesty doesn't really go for refills.
给养通常自己跟来 Refills typically come to her.
没错 Exactly.
兄弟 不准唱 Dude, stop.
不准唱 接下来他妈的还有上百英里的路 Stop. Now I'm going to have that song stuck in my head
可不想这歌会一直萦绕在我脑海 for the next hundred fucking miles.
- 要不我就... - 不要 - Would you prefer I just...- Don't.
不要 Don't.
# 我说 嘿 嘿 嘿 # And I said hey, hey, hey...
闭嘴 兄弟 Shut up, man.
闭嘴! 我说真的 Shut up! I'm serious.
# 我说了 嘿! # I said, hey!
# 那又怎样? # What's going on?
捉住他 捉住他! Get him. Get him!
我要让你湿透! I'll get you soaked!
# 我说嘿 那又怎样? # I said hey, what's going on?
第80天 # 我宁做森林也不做街道 # I'd rather be a forest than a street
没事的 It's okay.
你很安全 You're safe.
没事的 It's okay.
没事的 You're all right.
别怕 Don't be scared.
你抓住它了! 太感谢了! You got him! Thanks!
谢谢 Thanks.
它有名字吗? Does he have a name?
流星 Shooting Star.
流星? Shooting Star?
我叫薇拉 这是凯尔 And I'm Vera, and this is Kyle.
我叫谢丽尔 你喜欢今天的徒步吗? I'm Cheryl.Are you enjoying your hike today?
我今天玩得很开心 非常感谢你的关心 I'm having a wonderful time,thank you very much for asking.
你真有礼貌 You're so polite.
不管下不下雨 我们周末都会出来玩玩 We're just out for the weekend,rain or no.
是嘛 Yeah.
薇拉是我奶奶 Vera's my grandmom.
因为我有问题 所以她在照顾我 She's looking after me because I have some problems
我不怎么敢跟陌生人说话 I'm not supposed to talk about with strangers.
额 其实你不必说 Well, you don't have to talk about them.
但要知道 每个人都有自己的问题 我也有 But, you know, everybody has problems.I have problems, too.
什么样的问题? What kinds of problems?
额 我是说 我和我爸爸之间有问题 Well, I mean,I have problems with my dad.
我再没有见到他了 I don't see him anymore.
我也是 那你妈妈呢? Me, neither. What about your mommy?
她去世了 She died.
但你知道吗 问题不会仅仅是问题而已 But, you know,problems don't stay problems.
它们会转变成其他东西 They turn into something else.
她怎么死的? How did she die?
她得了场重病 She got very sick.
我妈妈是个歌手 她教会我很多歌曲 My mother's a singer.She's taught me many songs.
哦 是吗? Oh, really?
你想听一首吗? Would you like to hear one?
好啊 Yeah.
# 人们说 你就要离开这河谷 # From this valley they say you are leaving
# 我们将怀念你明亮双眸和甜美微笑 # We shall miss your bright eyes and sweet smile
# 因为你带走的所有阳光 # For you take with you all of the sunshine
# 曾照亮我们的路 # That has brightened our pathway a while
# 如果爱我 请过来坐在我身旁 # Then come and sit by my side if you love me
# 不要如此匆匆离我而去 # Do not hasten to bid me adieu
# 要记住红河谷啊 # Just remember the Red River Valley
# 还有那深爱你的牛仔 # And the cowboy that loved you so true
# 要记住红河谷啊 # Just remember the Red River Valley
# 还有那深爱你的牛仔 # And the cowboy that loved you so true
好动听的歌啊 That was really beautiful.
谢谢 Thank you.
我好想你 I miss you.
老天 我真的好想你 God, I miss you.
为何事情会发展成这样 我们无从得知 There's no way to know what makes one thing happen and not another.
是什么导致什么 What leads to what.
什么摧毁什么 What destroys what.
什么带来什么的昌盛 What causes what to flourish.
抑或 毁灭 Or die.
再或 其他结果 Or take another course.
如果我饶恕我自己? What if I forgive myself?
如果我内疚了? What if I was sorry?
如果我可以回到过去 But if I could go back in time,
我不会有所改变 I wouldn't do a single thing differently.
如果我还是想和那些男的上床? What if I wanted to sleep with every single one of those men?
如果海洛因能给我些教训? What if heroin taught me something?
如果我所做的一切都是让我来到这里的原因? What if all those things I did were the things that got me here?
如果我不曾被救赎会怎样? What if I was never redeemed?
如果我已被救赎又会怎样? What if I already was?
第94天
1995年9月15日 我们总是不能为我们所期望的做好准备 詹姆斯·米切纳 以及谢丽尔·斯瑞德
我花了这么多年成为母亲期望的那种女人 It took me years to be the woman my mother raised.
又花了四年七个月零三天的时间 It took me four years,seven months and three days to do it.
去适应她不在的日子 Without her.
迷失在悲伤的荒野之后 After I lost myself in the wilderness of my grief,
我找到了森林的出口 I found my way out of the woods.
却不知道自已要走向何方 And I didn't even know where I was going
直到徒步的最后一天来到这里 until I got there on the last day of my hike.
众神之桥
谢谢 我想了一遍又一遍 Thank you, I thought over and over again,
感谢每一个足迹教会我的 for everything the trail had taught me,
感谢目前还无从得知的一切 and everything I couldn't yet know.
四年后 我会走过这座桥 How, in four years,I'd cross this very bridge.
嫁给站在此处能看到的一个男人 I'd marry a man in a spot almost visible from where I was standing.
九年后 那个男人跟我 How, in nine years, that man and I
会有一个叫卡弗的儿子 would have a son named Carver,
再过一年 会有个跟我母亲同名的女儿 芭比 and a year later, a daughter named after my mother, Bobbi.
我只需知道 I knew only that I didn't need to
我无需徒手去抓住什么 reach with my bare hands anymore.
能看着水里的鱼已经足够 That seeing the fish beneath the surface of the water was enough.
这就是一切 That it was everything.
我的一生 如同凡人 My life, like all lives,
神秘莫测 无法逆转 神圣无比 mysterious, irrevocable and sacred.
此时 So very close.
此刻 So very present.
才是真正的我 So very belonging to me.
荒凉又如何... 顺其自然吧 How wild it was... to let it be.
# 我宁做麻雀也不做蜗牛 # I'd rather be a sparrow than a snail
# 我宁愿如此 # Yes, I would
# 如果我可以 # If I could
# 我一定会 # I surely would
# 我宁做斧锤也不做铁钉 # I'd rather be a hammer than a nail
# 我宁愿如此 # Yes, I would
# 如果我可以 # If I only could
# 我一定会 # I surely would
# 远方 我愿飞向远方 # Away, I'd rather sail away
# 如天鹅般 # Like a swan
# 来去自由 无拘无束 # That's here and gone
# 被世间俗事束缚 # A man gets tied up to the ground
# 只会带给世界 # He gives the world
# 悲伤之音 # Its saddest sound
# 我宁做森林也不做街道 # I'd rather be a forest than a street
# 我宁愿如此 # Yes, I would
# 如果我可以 # If I could
# 我一定会 # I surely would
# 我宁可脚踏实地 # I'd rather feel the earth beneath my feet
# 我宁愿如此 # Yes, I would
# 如果我可以 # If I only could
# 我一定会 # I surely would
# 每当太阳升起 # As the sun comes up
# 月亮落下 # As the moon goes down
# 沉重的想法盘旋脑海 # These heavy notions creep around
# 让我想起 # It makes me think
# 很久以前 # Long ago
# 我降临到这个世界 # I was brought into this life
# 小屁孩儿 小屁孩儿 # A little lamb, a little lamb
# 勇往直前 跌跌撞撞 # Courageous, stumbling
# 无畏就是我的中间名 # Fearless was my middle name
# 但我忽然迷了路 # But somewhere there I lost my way
# 人人都在前进 # Everyone walks the same
# 只有我在原地踏步 # Expecting me to step
# 经过狭窄小路 # The narrow path they've laid
# 他们声称要无畏前行 # They claim to walk unafraid
# 我却笨手笨脚 # I'll be clumsy instead
# 抱我 爱我 抑或离开我 # Hold me, love me or leave me
# 远远地 # High
# 说要保持距离 # Say keep within the boundaries
# 如果你要玩 # If you want to play
# 说反话只会更加难搞 # Say contradiction only makes it harder
# 我要怎样 # How can I be
# 才能成为想做的人 # What I want to be?
# 我要做的就是解放自己 # When all I want to do is strip away
# 摆脱约束 # These stilled constraints
# 粉碎伪装 # And crush this charade
# 扯下悲伤的面具 # Shred this sad masquerade
# 我需要劝说 # I don't need no persuading
# 我会犯错 堕落 振作 # I'll trip, fall, pick myself up and
# 继而勇往直前 # Walk unafraid
# 我是笨手笨脚 # I'll be clumsy instead
# 抱我 爱我 抑或离开我 # Hold me, love me or leave me
# 远远地 # High